being six

maybe i was six when carrie learner and i tried to set a "guinness book of world records" record
for the longest time on a teeter totter.
we had sibling spectators and kool aid
but carrie caught her ankle and we stopped moving.
when the attention shifted to her injury
i tasted jealousy -
it wasn't bitter,
but something i wanted to suck on for a long time
like a jolly ranchers green apple candy.